Monday, October 4, 2010

One Good Deed

My Grandpa isn't doing well. He lives in NY and I live in CA. He had surgery to improve the circulation in his legs so he can have better movement. He had one over the summer (my mom went out to take care of him) and unfortunately it didn't have the results we had hoped so he was told he would have to have more invasive surgery, well actually 3 of them. So my mom flew home until a month and a half ago when she flew back to NY from CA to help him through his first surgery. The results from the surgery were successful but his recovery hasn't been. He was released and then once home got sick and had to go back to the ER. He thought he had a heart attack. I don’t think he did, or if he did it was mild.

My grandfather doesn't like talking about things he thinks might worry us... He wants us to focus on our lives. He doesn't believe in funerals, he wants us to remember him when he was alive.

He is practical. He gifts stocks for Christmas so we all may have a nest egg to fall back on if we ever need it. He loves to cook and always makes sure we tell him what we want to eat before we come visit… and “I don’t know” or “I don’t care” are not answers so don’t even bother saying them.

He is conservatively generous. He believes we should have savings but has helped when it has been desperately needed like when my transmission went out after paying for a new used car. I had saved my money but spent most of the savings on purchasing the car. I came up with half and he matched it.

He is quiet. He doesn’t talk much and because of that I never realized just how much he loved me until I was 20 and had flown out to see him and my Grandmama. My first love and I had just said goodbye for the summer since he was going to Alaska to work so we could buy a home in Arizona. After a fun day of lunch and a movie my Grandpa made one stop and left me and my Grandmama in the car in the parking lot behind the building. I had no idea where we were but when he came out he had a map and a book on Alaska from the AAA. That moment still means more to me than any other.

He loves deeply. He is still so in love with my Grandmama despite her being gone for 5 years now. When she passed he had the same photo of her framed 5 times in each room and would take one to bed with him each night and talk to her. “Life just isn’t any fun without you Ceil.”

He is thoughtful. Before she passed he surprised my Grandmama with one last family Christmas. She thought my sister and mom were coming to visit my daughter and myself and that we would be going to Disneyland. I really had her going. We flew in to NY and my aunt picked us up from the airport and the next day we drove to their apartment building. My Grandmama still had no idea. As we unloaded the car with suitcases and Christmas presents on that Christmas Eve my Grandpa came down to the lobby and left my Grandmama in their apartment, well my Grandmama was never really known for patience (we are SO much alike) and so after 15 minutes of us all scrambling in the lobby she came down. She saw my mom and thought “Wow, she looks just like Joanie.” Then she saw my daughter. Now let me tell you, my daughter was 3 almost 4 years old and I had spent 2 months finding her the perfect dress. It had to be green, my Grandmama's favorite color... This was a gorgeous tea length green tartan plaid silk dress with a bow in back and the sweetest little capped sleeves. I had her dark chestnut hair pulled back in a pony tail with a red bow. She looked just like a little doll. My Grandmama knew immediately it was her great granddaughter and started crying. Tears of joy, her whole family was together on Christmas. My Grandpa gave her that. He gave us all that.

Now he is sick. My mom has been back there a month and a half. She is a brilliant web designer and online entrepreneur and so able to work from home (or anywhere there is an internet connection.) It was still summer when she went back east. Now it is fall and raining and getting colder. She thought she would be home weeks ago and made a return flight, then rescheduled it. Now the rescheduled flight has been cancelled. He just can’t live on his own anymore. I found this out on Friday when I called to tell my mom that my daughter didn’t make Treasurer but did her election rap in front of the whole school and despite not winning was very happy with herself. My mom sounded heartsick. I know she misses her home and her cats. To make matters worse she had just sent back a bunch of her belongings. Worse than that the only pair of shoes she has in NY are sandals and it’s been raining so she has been wearing her sandals with socks. I told her to go buy a pair of boots but she said my sister was sending her some things.

All weekend long that has been bugging me. My mom who raised my sister and I on her own, who watched one parent die and now is watching the other while trying to maintain her business and pay her rent and business expenses on her own has cold, soggy feet while running to the doctor appointments and grocery stores and pharmacy’s? For something so minor in comparison to everything else to even be an issue? Not my mom. So I took a page out of my Grandpa’s book. Practical, conservatively generous, loving and thoughtful I called up my mom and sent her the link to the boots on Payless.com I was looking at and asked her to pick the size and color.  She chose tan… the same color I was thinking. Gentle and warm – two things I know she really needs right now. I paid overnight shipping because store pick up takes two weeks (who knew? I would think if they are in stock you could pick them up same day.) So Wednesday she will be warm and dry. She started crying on the phone, said she will think of it as a hug from my daughter and I each time she puts them on.

I figure it is just my good deed for the day and am really just paying forward all my Grandpa has done for me.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Life Lessons

 Show Up, Pay Attention, Speak Your Truth, Don't Be Attached to Outcome

I'm not sure how long ago I first heard this and the idea that each of us struggles more with one than others I just know it has been SO helpful in dealing with different kinds of people. I SEE it!

My bf shows up but on his time schedule, in fact we have a nickname for it. And to be honest sometimes he doesn’t show. I’ve seen him fly across the country 3 days later than originally planned – yes he paid for the flight change.

My daughter is super smart, great in school and yet struggles with Paying Attention. My friends have given her the nickname Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter… smart but dingy is what I call it… I can be guilty at times too.

My best friends for some reason both struggle with telling the truth to avoid conflict. It drives me nuts, if you don’t feel like doing something this weekend just SAY SO!

My greatest challenge is the last one... Boy do I experience that time and again. I will have an entire weekend planned out.

Friday swing by my daughter's school to pick her up and then I will go by the grocery store to make something special and then go by the shoe store and find the perfect pair of shoes for that blouse I was given then home to make my wonderful dinner everyone will love while watching the Netflix blu-ray that is in the mailbox waiting to be picked up.

Saturday morning wake up early and make breakfast before visiting the SWAP meet with my family and getting the organic produce for the week and maybe browse the book sellers for a great, quick weekend read. Come home and put everything away before visiting friends that evening. We will have a great evening sitting around and talking while the kids play. My bf and I will leave and come home (my daughter spends the night) and cozy up on the couch and watch a movie together before falling asleep spooning.

Sunday, wake up to sunlight coming through the curtains, enjoy a cup of coffee and a couple hours of reading my book while he sleeps in. Enjoy the back patio and the sound of the ducks in the pond and children laughing in the pool before getting ready to BBQ back at friend’s house for an early dinner and then home to prepare for work and school the next day.

Is it really too much to ask the weekend be that simple and smooth?

YES! Here is reality...

Friday - First there is never any "swinging by" to pick up my daughter from school and Friday is the worst. Why can't these parents get their kids and leave? Why are they #1 double parked chatting away for 10 minutes so no one can even go aroudn them #2 sitting in their car when all the kids are in it for 15 minutes or #3 parked with a 1/2 car length in front of them and about 3/4 behing them???
Next the store... where the lines are insanely long and they only have 2 of the 6 things I needed to make my Friday night masterpiece dinner... so that means at least one grocery store to go to. Shoes, yeah well you know that cute pair I was going to pick up that I saw last week... They only have them in sizes smaller than mine and as cute as they are I am getting older darn it and pain just doesn't make me feel sexy anymore. Before you ask - No, there really aren't any other pair that would work. Sigh. So off to the second grocery store where the lines are longer than the first and there wasn't any parking to begin with and my daughter is tired and it's hot and she wants to go home (like I don't?) and they have 3 of the items but I am still missing the last one that I NEED for dinner... Oh hell... Who am I kidding, it's Friday, it's take out or delivery night. Next, home to pick up that blu-ray only to find no movie and it’s time to pay bills again. The evening consists of bf playing xbox and daughter on sorority life while I look at the back of their heads wondering if they know I’m there.

Saturday – Sooooo tired I actually sleep in too late to make breakfast much less get any good produce from the SWAP meet and with no real purpose to go other than looking at books (of which I have too many and just piss off the bf when I bring home more) I pass and think of what else we could do for fun until dinner with friends tonight. I have many ideas but all of them consist of my daughter actually getting dressed (I’m not really one to talk though) and my bf actually waking up. At this point I’m wishing I at least had a book to read. Before I know it it’s time to be at our friend’s house. The bf is just getting up and starting to move, still needs to shower and will just meet us over there. My daughter can’t find matching socks and I am OVER IT! We go to our friend’s house and the men are in the Man Cave and wondering where my bf is. On his way… the Mrs. and I talk kids and dinner and find something to watch in the house World of Warcraft is just not that interesting to me (what is with men and video games?) My bf finally arrives and dinner is ready, we eat, we talk and then it’s late and time to go. I follow him home in my car and when we get home we enjoy a movie on Netflix via xbox with a GROUP. Sorry but even if they can’t see me I am NOT into group sex, which means no sex and so I change into pajamas and go to bed.

Sunday – Honestly, at this point I’ve given up. Whatever happens, happens.

Friday, August 6, 2010

Finding that silver lining on the darkest of days

Last Sunday I woke up to find out the tires on my and thirty-one of my neighbors cars had been slashed. I was actually pretty fortunate I only had to replace three instead of four tires like most everyone else. The bill was over $300 and for me (and I'm sure for most of you) that is a nice amount of money. For me it was half of the coaching course I was going to take this month... or a trip to visit some friends... or even new school clothes for my daughter and a netbook that was supposed to be a birthday present for myself. 

So why did my neighbor have to ask me, "Aren't you upset?" 

I was upset, but honestly there was nothing I could do about it. I started looking up online and calling tire stores. Of course it being Sunday not many were open and the prices I was being quoted were preposterous by the few stores that were open. I was in "fix it" mode though and so my only thought was how to fix the problem without killing my budget and still accomplishing some of the goals I had set for myself this month. 

My new plan? Do NOT freak out over what I have no control over, fix what I can. I waited until Monday to call discount tires who saved me over $100 just for the 3 tires (they like me there, I've now bought 6 tires in 2010) and sign up for a less expensive coaching course that I am REALLY interested in and get credentialed in that. 

I may not be getting a netbook (I dream of the pink one below) for my birthday and I may not get the EXACT Life Coaching credentials I thought I would (I only have to wait 2 months to do it again) and I may be on a tighter budget for my birthday than I anticipated (Still going to see Disneyland fireworks) but I have learned once again, that not being attached to outcome creates the peace that I love and the clarity to see what blessings are mine.

Attitude of gratitude. Remain open to whatever happens - there is always a reason. 

So, the next time it feels like NOTHING is going right take a look at all the things you CAN do now that everything else isn't happening exactly the way you want it. 

Let go - let God! 

Let Go, Let Miracles Happen: The Art of Spiritual SurrenderThe Ultimate Happiness Prescription: 7 Keys to Joy and EnlightenmentSamsung N150 10.1-Inch Flamingo Pink Netbook - Up to 7 Hours of Battery Life

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Honest Answers from The Rainbow Connection

I've been very out of balance the past few months. There have been outside circumstances that led to internal issues and needless to say I haven't felt very inspired. I've spent the past couple of years helping my loved ones but at my own expense. It's ok, I take responsibility for my choices and am confident I would have made the same choices to help them if I had a chance to choose again. It is my nature to help others. My name means love, passion and sweetness and it seems it was well chosen because I love others. I am passionate about helping others love themselves and sweetness? Well, I think at times I am a little too strong to be my perception of the word but I do love taking a little time out of my day to create a little pick me up for those in needs... I'm pretty sure that qualifies.


Coming out of my funk there are so many doors opening and so much I want to share with you but a promise is a promise and I am a woman of my word so Chakras it is. I will go into other areas pertaining to these wonderful energy centers we each hold within us but for now I chose to answer honestly a few of Cristina Carlino's questions from her book The Rainbow Connection. I recommend you answer the questions for yourself. It has been truly amazing to see which areas of my life I am abundant and the others that require further growth. I'm looking forward to our journey together and can't wait to share with you what is in store.


(Oh yeah, for my friends who requested to know more about pink - it is associated with the heart chakra so read info on green.)

Red


I have abundance; my material requirements are satisfied: Sometimes

I have stability; I have strong family ties, good friendships, and committed relationships: Yes
I have balance; I have tempered my aggressive male and passive female energies: Sometimes
I have security; I have a good job, practical fiscal responsibility, and dwell in a safe environment: Sometimes
I have ethics and a code of honor; I regard all things and all people as equal: Yes


 

    Red is the path of family, balance, ethics, and security.

The life lesson is that “we are the world.”

The affirmation is “I have.”


The people who are my red: My foster parents, my Aunt Brooke and Uncle Garth, my Grandpa, Alan & Susan. 
The places that give me red: Home - in the kitchen, on the couch or the back patio, Seal Beach, Gridley, my aunt Brooke and Uncle Garth’s house. 
The things that are my red: My job, my coaching work, cooking dinner for my family.


Orange


I feel pleasure; I enjoy a healthy sexual outlook and I spend time doing little things that I enjoy: Yes
I feel joy; I find laughter in each day and enjoy being silly: Yes
I feel a sense of control; I am not controlled by any addictions: Yes

I feel a great sense of well-being; I am fit, practice healthy habits, and tend to my appearance: Sometimes

 
Orange is the path of pleasure, joy, control, and a sense of well-being.

The life lesson is to “honor each other through pleasure and joy.”

The affirmation is “I feel.”

The people who are my orange: My daughter, my boyfriend, Janonn, new people I meet and connect with, my Grandmama. 

The places that give me orange: The $3 movie theater, Used bookstores, The SWAP meet, Descanso Gardens, Disney California, Captain Jack’s. 
The things that are my orange: Books – spiritual or a Jennifer Crusie, music, good food, jewelry making, painting, cosmetics and new clothes.


Yellow


I know empowerment; I set the rules and boundaries in my life: Sometimes
I know confidence; I have an unshakable belief in myself: Yes
I know the answer; I am a well informed individual: Yes
I know achievement; I am able to set and make my goals: Yes





 Yellow is the path of confidence, achievement, empowerment, and knowledge.

The life lesson is to “honor yourself and your achievements.”

The affirmation is “I can.”

  

The people who are my yellow are: My mother, Grandma Jana, Cynthia S., Mama G., Erin W., most single mothers – to me they prove daily they can do anything. 
The places that give me yellow: Places I used to work – as in I am confident in my decision to no longer work there – that something more is on the horizon. The library, friend’s homes, new places where anything is possible. Renaissance Faire or group meetings where people try to make the world a better place. 
Things that are my yellow: High heels and business suits, my computer, things I make – jewelry, paintings, writings, etc.


Green


I love peace; I am a lover, not a fighter: Yes
I love forgiveness; I do not hold anger, resentment, or blame: Sometimes
I love compassion; I have love in my heart for all people: Yes

I love generosity; I would rather give than receive: Yes

 

 Green is the path of compassion, generosity, love and forgiveness.

The life lesson is that “love is power.”

The affirmation is “I love.”

 
The people who are my green: My daughter, my Uncle Ted, my grandmama, my boyfriend, Brooke and Traci – because we always come back to each other. My cat Coco Chanel. My Dad – In that everything he does is out of love or generosity and when it goes south I see he does things out of love why he did it instead of the outcome and have learned forgiveness. 

The places that give me green: Home – making dinner for my family or playing a game or watching a movie together. Echo Park – I can’t stop without feeding someone in need. Anywhere you find children or babies – They only know love and it is contagious. 
The things that are my green: Photos, old ticket stubs or concert tickets – things that remind me of old times, my spiritual books – Anam Cara by John O’Donohue and Born To Be Together by Terry Lamb. Feeding the ducks on the patio and tending to our garden. Playing games with or reading to my daughter and boyfriend.


Blue


I express sincerity; I never lie to undermine others: Yes
I express willpower; I can make a commitment and stay with it: Yes

I express creativity; I express creativity in my personal and professional environments: Yes
I express myself verbally; I am not afraid to speak my truth: Yes

 

Blue is the path of sincerity, communication, creativity, and commitment.

The life lesson is that “truth shall set you free.”

The affirmation is “I express.”


 

The people who are my blue: Janonn, Brooke, my boyfriend, Kelli B., Susan and Alan B., Michael Moore. 
The places that give me blue: Home, CCEJ workshops, my job, the car on long drives. 
The things that are my blue: My blog, long talks with friends and loved ones, Michael’s and Joanne’s fabrics which provide me the supplies to express my creativity. My graphic design and my cooking, books – always books.





Indigo

I see beyond; I am extremely intuitive: Yes
I see imaginatively; I am inventive: Yes

I see choices; I am decisive: Sometimes
I see my purpose; I lead an inspired life: Yes
 

Indigo is the person who follows the path of intuition, wisdom, discernment, and inspiration.

The life lesson is “believing is seeing.”

The affirmation is “I see.”


The people who are my indigo: My boyfriend, myself, Nelson Mandela and Sidney Poitier

The places that give me indigo: My patio, Sedona, AZ, the bathroom when taking a bath with candles and scented oils. Almost anywhere has the ability to be this place it is more about the state I am in. In the car on long drives when my mind has time to wander. Art museums, gardens and a night sky in Arizona, the beach. 
The things that are my indigo: Painting, listening to music, writing, conversations where Spirit moves through me to help others. Reading poetry or philosophy. Walking in nature.


Violet


I trust surrender; I don’t cling to anything or anyone: Sometimes
I trust in patience; I know time is my friend: Yes
I trust fate; God always delivers: Yes

I trust gratitude; I thank God for everything and everyone: Yes


Violet is the person who follows the path of surrender, faith, patience, and gratitude.

The life lesson is “I will, thy will.”

The affirmation is “I trust.”


The people who are my violet: Giovanna, Ghandi and Brian L. Weiss 

The places that give me violet: Gardens, beaches – anywhere in nature. Candlelit rooms at night with incense while meditating. Anywhere I travel while meditating. Within myself. 
The things that are my violet: Time alone or watching others I love sleep. Sitting outside looking at every living thing around me. Looking back on how cyclical life is and what goes down also comes back up with more blessings than before.


Rainbow Connection: How to Use Color and Energy to Transform Your LifeAnam Cara: A Book of Celtic WisdomFaking ItMany Lives, Many Masters: The True Story of a Prominent Psychiatrist, His Young Patient, and the Past-Life Therapy That Changed Both Their LivesThe Measure of a Man: A Spiritual Autobiography (Oprah's Book Club)
 

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

A Basic Lesson on Chakras

I've been asked a lot lately about aches and pains my friends have been having while experiencing changes in their lives or issues that they are attempting to deal with that relate to the area of their physical discomfort. I mention the chakra and properties of that chakra related to their discomfort in their physical and emotional/spiritual bodies and they want to know more... Some examples of the concerns I've been hearing are:

"My lower back bothers me all the time."
"I wake up in the mornings with a sore throat almost every day."
"I don't know why but my chest has been feeling tight and just achy."
"My headaches have been becoming more frequent lately."
"My husband's stomach has really been bothering him and we can't figure out why."

Of course if any of you are having physical ailments you should see your doctor as this article is not to replace medical attention and I am not certified to diagnose or prescribe remedies. My only intent is to help others see the correspondence between our emotional and spiritual issues and how our physical bodies can react to those issues.

 One of my favorite books on chakras and how color affects our lives is by Cristina Carlino the creator of Philosophy, a personal wellness company that is known for wonderful skin care and beauty products that inscribe delightfully and meaningful quotations meant to inspire on their packaging.

Cristina wrote this book after having found some success in her life in many areas but still felt very unfulfilled in others. After a lifetime of looking at colors and seeing her own and others response to them she saw the healing potential they all offer us and shared what she has studied and learned. Here is a brief understanding of the different chakras we all posses and what they relate to as well as just a few of her suggestions of what we can use to help enhance the positive attributes of that chakra into our lives through flowers, aromatherapy and gemstones. I also included which room in your home is attributed to the different chakras as I feel it is a good way to look around you and physically see which areas are being neglected or could be enhanced and used more efficiently to bring those positive attributes into your lives.
Color - Red
Energy Center - Root
Location - Perineum
Mantra - I have
Positive attributes - Stability, security, safety, rootedness, commitment, ethics/order.
Negative attributes - Insecurity, frustration, restlessness, fear, separation, alienation, greed.
Physical Organs - Bladder and blood, circulation, bones and skeleton, colon, feet, hips and legs.
To Increase the Positive Attributes Use:
Flowers - Roses, carnations and tulips
Aromatherapy - Rose, jasmine, cinnamon, cedarwood, clove and rosewood
Gemstones - Agate, alexandrite, bloodstone, black onyx, garnet, smoky quartz, rose quartz and ruby
Rooms - Living room and family room


Color - Orange
Energy Center - Sacral
Location - Lower abdomen to navel area
Mantra - I feel
Positive attributes - Pleasure, joy, abundance, sense of well being
Negative attributes - Exhaustion, sadness, greed, depression
Physical Organs - Kidney, reproductive system, spleen
To Increase the Positive Attributes Use:
Flowers - Birds of paradise and daylilies
Aromatherapy - Basil, galbanum, grapefruit, orange, ylang ylang, geranium, jasmine and patchouli
Gemstones - Amber, carnelian, coral, citron, jasper and topaz
Rooms - Playroom, gym and bedroom


Color - Yellow
Energy Center - Solar Plexus
Location - Below sternum to navel area
Mantra - I know
Positive attributes - Positive sense of self worth, confidence, empowerment and achievement.
Negative attributes - Negative sense of self, lack of confidence, lack of control over one's own life and fear of failure.
Physical Organs -Gallbladder, liver, pancreas, small intestines and stomach
To Increase the Positive Attributes Use:
Flowers - Freesia, yellow tulips, sunflowers and black eyed susans
Aromatherapy - Grapefruit, tangerine, lemongrass, and lemon balm
Gemstones - Apatite, calcite, yellow citron, tigereye, fools gold and topaz
Rooms -  The study


Color - Green
Energy Center - Heart
Location - Heart
Mantra - I love
Positive attributes - Love, peace, harmony, compassion and generosity
Negative attributes - Hatred, high drama, jealousy, mean spiritedness and selfishness
Physical Organs - Heart and lungs
To Increase the Positive Attributes Use:
Flowers - Gerbera daisies, bells of ireland, st patrick's tulips
Aromatherapy -Eucalyptus, norway spruce, pine and lilac
Gemstones - Diamond, emerald, green calcite, jade, malachite, watermelon tourmaline
Rooms -  Backyard/greenhouse, kids room and bedroom


Color - Blue
Energy Center - Throat
Location - Throat
Mantra - I express
Positive attributes -Sincerity, willpower, creativity and responsibility
Negative attributes - Gossip, co-dependence, imitation, lack of commitment
Physical Organs - Mouth, teeth, throat, tongue and vocal chords
To Increase the Positive Attributes Use:
Flowers - Cornflowers, lavender and hydrangea
Aromatherapy - Jasmine, myrrh, olibanum, tuberose, ylang ylang and lavender
Gemstones - Aquamarine, lapiz lazuli, sapphire and turquoise
Rooms - Kitchen, playroom and craft room


Color - Indigo
Energy Center - Brow
Location - Brow above and between the eyes (third eye area)
Mantra - I see
Positive attributes - Intuition, wisdom, discerning and perceptive
Negative attributes - Judgment, know-it-all, unfeeling and ungracious
Physical Organs -Brain, eyes, skull and nervous system
To Increase the Positive Attributes Use:
Flowers - Irises and lilacs
Aromatherapy - Sandalwood, geranium maculatum, lavender, eucalyptus and blue chamomile
Gemstones - Amethyst, azurite, blue and white flourite, moonstone and purple apatite
Rooms -  Quiet room


Color - Violet
Energy Center - Crown
Location - Top of your head
Mantra - I trust
Positive attributes - Surrender, faith, release and gratitude
Negative attributes - Fighting, obsession, egotism and manipulation
Physical Organs - Spinal chord, brain stems and nerves
To Increase the Positive Attributes Use:
Flowers - Violets
Aromatherapy - Freesia, olibanum, sweet violet, lavender and clary sage
Gemstones - Amethyst
Rooms - Any that are sacred to you

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Learning From Your Past

Mercury is retrograde... it's when the planets appear to be moving backwards through the zodiac and it happens usually three times a year (this year it is four, which is not too common) and lasts about three weeks each time. Mercury is the planet related to communication, technology and travel and it being retrograde means things related to communication, technology and travel will take just a little bit more patience than usual.

A lot of people get impatient during this time feeling like nothing is going their way and it is easy to feel that way... but not very helpful. After learning about how strong Mercury's retrograde can affect us I started looking for ways to utilize this time for good. One of many ways to use this seemingly backwards time is to look back on our lives. Reflect on where we have been and how it has made us who we are, how we got into our current situation - whether good or bad and start to plan our next step.

This retrograde seems to be affecting me positively. I have had three friends and a foster sister reappear into my life from the mists of the past. One was my best friend when I was five. She and I were always very strong willed and of course each of us always wanted our own way. As we got older we went our separate ways and lost touch. We had tried to reconnect in our late teenage years but it was ineffective as we both still harbored lingering wounds from our childhood. I am thrilled that this time we have been able to discuss our past and once again share our special friendship that can only be shared by one who knew me so young.

The next friend is one who knew me in my pre-teen and early teen years, she has been someone with who we have lost touch and magically found each other again many times. When we knew each other the last time she was going through a difficult period and disappeared to take care of herself. She needed a little time away and I am so happy she got it because she has and continues to do some miraculous things.

I have another friend who is moving closer to me. She was never the closest friend but we had a class together in high school that neither of us will ever forget. I feel really blessed to get to know better this wonderful woman who has shared with me she is bringing another beautiful soul into the world. I am excited she is moving closer, into showing her around and shopping for baby clothes.

My sister. When I first entered my foster parents home she was at school. Before she came in the door you knew she was home. She was gorgeous, loud and hilarious. You never had to wonder what was on her mind, which made you feel more secure than afraid. She was kind but straight to the point, no-nonsense kind of lady... and all the years that have passed between then and now hasn't changed that a bit. This amazing woman, like all of us girls, has been through a lot and being able to talk to her now and hear her story and how she has triumphed over life's set backs only to become stronger and funnier overwhelms me with pride and joy. Seeing pictures of her beautiful face that has grown with more beauty and wisdom and a gentleness and grace I realize how wonderful this retrograde has been to me and I wonder, have I finally learned from my past enough to accept the positive flow retrograde planets emit?

I don't take anything for granted. It would be great to think I have ascended into no longer being affected by Mercury's retrograde but I will still be cautious, be more patient with my emails not sending, internet working intermittently, traffic being slower than usual, conversations not going quite like I hoped due to misunderstandings... As they say knowing is half the battle and whether people believe or think I'm crazy or not I can't even begin to say how many calls I receive full of distress during this time...

So my wish to you is to use this time wisely. Look back on your life and start to plan what is the next step (May 11, 2010 Mercury goes direct again) Reconnect with old friends but don't worry if the communication doesn't go quite as planned or you play phone tag for the next couple of weeks. Try again later. Give yourself a little more time in the morning to get to school or work. Meditate on your life, breathe more. Discover the renewing well of patience that is within you, it will bring  you peace. Easier said than done I know... Patience was always the hardest thing for me to learn... but well worth the wait!

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Saturday, March 27, 2010

Fear should never decide anything in your life!

Not everyone is going to understand your dream or your choice to make that dream a reality. Everything is possible and sure it helps if your friends and family support you but you need to understand their support may not always appear the way you want or even need it to.


I'm a cheerleader. I don't just tell people what they want to hear but I see limitless potential in everyone's dreams and the practical applications available to manifest those dreams. I'm there for those I love and those of you I don't even know yet because I truly believe everything is possible. Not everyone will support you in the way that I do but that doesn't mean they don't support you.


Celebrating accomplishments both big and small are all steps in the direction towards manifesting your dreams. After all, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step... you have to remember that good things come to those that wait, have faith rather than hope and continue to work towards your dreams.


Some people will worry about your stepping into the unknown. They will want you to be secure both physically and financially (another physicality.) Take that for what it is - show and express your gratitude for them to care enough about you to worry and keep moving towards your dream.


Dare to live the life you imagined because nothing in this life is guaranteed no matter how "safe" you play it so you might as well be able to look back and say "I was happy, I lived my dream." Each of us is born with a gift to share, we are all valuable to the great design of life and the people we share that gift with. Abundance is yours with each day you share that gift and peace when you look back on that day.


Living your dream is the single most important thing you can do for yourself and others. Lead by example. So many people are afraid to take a risk to find the pure joy that comes from accomplishing your dreams.


I hear all the time, "Well I don't know that I really like my job but I am lucky to have one." UGH! Really? It's so sad to me when people adopt that attitude because they are letting fear take over. How will they look back on their life when their time is done? I can't imagine looking at 30+ years in a job you don't like without thinking about how much time I wasted not being happy or doing the things I dreamed and loved.


Fear should never decide anything in your life. Living your dream brings joy and we all deserve a little of that but only we can gift that to ourselves.


So how do you make peace with the people in our life that aren't as encouraging as you hoped? Find the cheerleaders in your life and sound your dreams off them and then share what you have accomplished with the others in your life that care enough to worry about you. Every accomplishment will help relieve some of those worries they hold and maybe you will even inspire them to put their fears aside and dream a little more and take the risk to move towards their own dreams.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Discover your treasure!

"It is by going down into the abyss that we recover the treasures of life. Where you stumble, there lies your treasure."
-Joseph Campbell


My daughter came home from school the other day and had a rough day, she cried "Mom, why was today so bad?" My response, "Well honey if all days were good you wouldn't appreciate them so much, it's like sweet and sour chicken (one of her favorite's)you wouldn't taste how sweet it is without some of the sour."

A lot of people wonder why things just seem to go wrong so often or why they can't "get a break" or how much longer they have to struggle to get to where they want to be. Understand that this is a part of the process. You have to continue having faith and working towards your goals and dreams and when you stumble don't get mad, try to learn from it. We will all get there and the only delays are those we need to learn from in order to appreciate accomplishing our goals and dreams when we have them.

Sometimes the lesson to learn is to be happy in the NOW. When you have lost everything you think was important in your life stop and take a look at what you have... even if it is just you then you are blessed. You are important, you are special, you are worth more than any material thing you can have.... You are constant and if you refuse to give up on yourself then you will never fail in anything.

Each lesson you learn prepares you to accept the abundance that is yours. Open yourself to the lessons, ask for them, ask what you are to learn from them while in their throes. Allow the abyss to become a portal to bring you to where you are supposed to be.

Being honest with yourself in your discovery will allow you to find the greatest treasure of all... YOU! The good things and bad things we do (no one is perfect) create the many facets of ourselves and as any jeweler will tell you the more facets you have the more brilliantly you will shine! Make peace with all of who you are and don't break yourself into a million pieces over regrets - larger gems are much more valuable.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Who Are You?

I watched the new Alice In Wonderland movie over the weekend and it has just stuck with me... So many ideas coming from this new production of a classic. The story has always had moments from within it that pop into my consciousness at some seemingly odd moments in my life - always teaching me something.

The most obvious teaching is the caterpillar asking Alice, "Who are you?" I love how Alice isn't really quite sure... She is who she is yet she doesn't know the extent of who that is until the story has played out. Isn't that always the way? Hindsight is 20/20 and so many people look back on life wishing they had done something more when they were younger, had more energy or before their body started twinging every time they moved.

As the story progresses all of Alice's insecurities, she begins with quite a few, start melting away as she is morally disposed to conquer each fear that she would normally allow to overwhelm her. She learns about friendship and compassion which are forms of the greatest power of all - LOVE. Love conquers all things.

Alice doesn't think about her cowardice as she plunges ahead to save her friends. She thinks only of her friends. Her selflessness being cast aside for her moral values. Her thoughts of herself and self preservation replaced by compassion leads her to the self-discovery of who she is.

Doing something for others without worrying about what you will gain or lose brings about the greatest gains of all. A selfless act without concern for the end result (appreciation or recognition from others for how great you are) brings you closer to yourself so when you gaze at yourself in the looking glass you know you can beat all Jabberwockies that appear in your life. The knowledge of being able to accomplish anything, to overcome anything that may hold you back is the great gift of knowing who you are, capable of anything life throws at you and completely unafraid.

I am Alice.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Pursue The Things That Make You Happy

My mother never thought of herself as an artist although she has always known she is creative and loves art. She did theater in her younger years, sang and played music throughout most of her life and in the past decade has designed and created websites and businesses. Whenever it came to doing something by hand she always asked me to do it. I used to love to draw and paint and create artistic pieces but not with the same passion she would request them of me. I would always tell her that she should do them, could do them but she would always reply, "No, I'm just not artistic like you are."

A couple years ago she decided to take an art class. She loves the process and learning (ever an inquisitive Virgoan mind) about different types of art, watercolors and pencils and oils and the styles. She reads biographies of painters and studies their work and then tries it out. She has become a woman obsessed. She dreams of being able to paint and create all day every day. Of course she still has her work which she does after morning meditation with her brushes and canvas, it has become a part of her spirit, brings her closer to spirit.

It took until the past year for her to admit she is very artistic. She even got up the nerve to submit her work into a National Arts Program Exhibit in her city. She did it for fun, to make a move towards showing her work - an insecurity many artists suffer from... "will people like it?" and of course, "is it really good?"

A couple of weeks later while on the phone with my mother helping her with her bookkeeping (way too many art supplies) and hearing her sigh about how she wishes she could just paint all day and not deal with Quickbooks she received an email.... She won Best In Show! She cried with joy, in fact did that first so fiercely that I was afraid something was wrong...

You see it is NEVER to late to live the dream you have for yourself. If there is something you have always been interested in but never thought yourself capable - DO IT ANYWAY! Take a course you could be great or it could just be the breadcrumbs Hansel and Gretel left you to find what you never imagined but always dreamed.

Need help discovering what that is? I am always available for consulting. Just leave a comment and Ask Glitter what it is you want to know!

To view my mothers art visit www.artforthesoulofit.com

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Examining Our Thoughts

I've had a philosophy I have lived by most of my life.

"Don't say anything behind someone's back that I wouldn't say to their face.... and if I'm thinking it but wouldn't say it there is something wrong with my thinking."

That's not to say you should be rude about what you have to say, there is always a nice way to say things... but it's more about a self check to examine your thoughts.

If someone looks like hell ask if they are ok. If someone is messing up at work ask if there is anything you can do to help them or what they need in order to do a better job. It's not always about doing their work but helping them discover what they can do to help themselves.

Things come up in life, in all of our lives where we feel overwhelmed and instead of judging others when they are down try to remember when you last felt that way and what would have made you feel better, try implementing that in your approach to them.

If you find yourself thinking negative thoughts about someone take a good hard look at what it is about them that bugs you so much.

I'd love to hear feedback about people in your life that have rubbed you the wrong way. Let's work together to examine what is at the root of your feelings and use that to empower you to keep moving forward and stop letting that negative energy slow you down.

Monday, February 8, 2010

All it takes is a simple change.

"Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced." -James Baldwin

Ain't that the truth? There are so many issues in the world right now, in our lives right now that we wish could be changed. What are we really doing to change them? Talking about them is good, it raises awareness but how good is that awareness without action? We discuss what's wrong but do we have ideas on what is right? Are we putting those ideas into action plans? Are we involving the right people to help us create that change to prevent the downward spiral we are heading towards? Or are we just talking about it to prepare ourselves for the worst when it happens and... that's it, just talking about it, Nothing more.

It can seem really overwhelming to try to change the world, ours or other peoples. But as Lao Tzu wrote "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." We can not change other people but we can change ourselves and that creates change in people around us and then people around them begin to change... It is the ripple effect. We are all linked to each other. We are all here on this planet together to learn from each other and teach each other.

So, task for today is to think of something you can do to start creating the change you want to come about.

If it is for more peace in the world think of how you can become more peaceful. What represents peace to you? Create that peaceful moment and share it with someone.

If it is for less hunger think of how you can help someone who is hungry. Make a few sandwiches, they can be peanut butter and jelly and give them to someone who needs them. Buy some fruit on sale at the store and maybe a few bottles of water (please recycle) and gift them to those without food or shelter.

If it is for more understanding go to someone you don't seem to understand and ask them about themselves, discover why they are the way they are... each of us has a fascinating story to tell, be open minded and not only will you discover understanding but compassion.

Become more grateful for what you have. Shower this gratitude on others who have less and that change will pay forward and return to you in a better world. How will it be a better world when so many other things don't change? You will be changed. You will be able to see how something so simple creates the spark of inspiration in others.

It's like the weight loss before and after stories. When we see others have done it we feel inspired to try it ourselves, we think "If they could do it I can do it." You are right, you can... Be the before and after. Share your experience to inspire others and they will want to feel as great as you do.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

I'm no different

Gosh, it's been 30 days since I posted anything. SAD! Here's what seemed to happen...

I sat down weeks ago to write and as I started writing I realized I was touching on SO many things I wanted to break down a little deeper individually.... so I got frustrated, stepped away from my computer and have been mulling over exactly how to share what I've discovered... there's SO much!

All while this was happening... work got crazy, money got crazy, family got crazy... everything seemed to be falling apart. I missed being in Arizona visiting family and friends, enjoying the night sky full of stars and a moon that brought down a magical light that made me feel anything is possible. I was stressing over money and became resentful of where I live because it seemed after being in AZ that we work so much yet rarely have the opportunity to enjoy ourselves afterward.

A weekend? Two days to decompress from the stresses of work? Two days to do laundry, grocery shop, clean house, visit friends and anything else we are responsible for doing that a full time job does not allow you mean? I don't know about you but I am exhausted, not rested come Sunday night.

THIS is why I want to do what I can to share with you the joys of living your dream. When you live your dream you will be able to find joy and relaxation in a job well done, something you have accomplished that brings you happiness and gives you five days a week to feel like "ahhhh this is a life worth living."

It is possible, I promise!

So, why did my month fall by the wayside? Why should you listen to someone who has problems too? Because I am no different. This is my journey too. I'm just here to hold your hand and share with you what works for me, to listen and to use the gift I've been given to look beyond the physical manifestations of our fears and to help you realize your weapons against them.

Like right now, it would be really easy to blame everything on everyone else... or life. How many times do you hear when something goes wrong someone say to you "that's life?" Something that really bugs me about that is the lack of responsibility in that statement.

When that attitude is taken where we just have to "wait it out" makes us a victim. We don't try to reflect on how we came to be here, where we are trying to go and why these issues come up. This is a time of introspection. This is the time to look at those blockages and what I am doing to create them. It may not always seem like there is anything you are doing to create drama from apparently outside sources but there always is.

We are afraid of our own success. Right when we are about to fulfill our dream or are taking one step closer is when **it hits the fan. Something within us manifests our fears of success and failure and calls out to anyone or anything that is listening to keep us from having to keep moving forward. Recognize it because when all hell breaks loose in your life you need to know you DO have the power to regain control. This can manifest in depression and chaos in our lives.

Do not give up, give yourself time to experience and learn from the darkness that precedes our dawn. Take those brief moments before light comes to plan and prepare and discover those feelings. Dig deep within yourself and face those fears because each one that hurts us has the capability to be used as a weapon against your ego. When discovered it becomes forged in spirit and each time spirit becomes stronger you create more energy, more passion and breathe more life into the manifestation of your dreams.

In the meantime to keep me going, keep my head up and take a step closer each day to manifesting my dream I will be taking a quote a day and writing about it... Let's see where it takes us.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Amazing Palindrome!



Beautiful! This is what we need to work on. We can do this - together and only together. Discover the freedom your life purpose has in store for you. The joy in helping someone else with their life purpose and the reciprocity which builds relationships that are so much stronger than any evil agenda.

HANDBOOK 2010

  Thank you Auntie for sharing this!                                                           


   HANDBOOK 2010


Health:

  1. Drink plenty of water.
  2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
  3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..
  4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
  5. Make time to pray.
  6. Play more games
  7. Read more books than you did in 2009 ..
  8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
  9. Sleep for 7 hours.
  10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.


Personality:
  1. Don't compare your life to others.. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
  2. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present  moment.13.    Don't over do.. Keep your limits.
  3. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
  4. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
  5. Dream more while you are awake
  6. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
  7. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
  8. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
  9. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
  10. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
  11. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
  12. Smile and laugh more.
  13. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...


Society:
  1. Call your family often.
  2. Each day give something good to others.
  3. Forgive everyone for everything.
  4. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of  6.
  5. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
  6.  What other people think of you is none of your business.
  7. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.


Life:
  1. Do the right thing!
  2. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
  3. GOD heals everything.
  4. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..
  5. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
  6. The best is yet to come..
  7. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
  8. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

The first thing to ask yourself

So many people nowadays feel like they are missing something in their life. They get frustrated because it hasn't turned out the way they thought or planned. They find themselves in a job that brings them no joy and barely any security or maybe they don't have a job at all. People feel lost and while the fear in their head says to take any job they can, their heart just weeps. Hope hangs on by a thin thread, faith can be about as substantial as a wish on a birthday candle. It does not have to be this way. If you find your passion you will find the hope and faith to sustain you through any and everything! All you need is a dream, here is how to find it.

It begins with a question, When was the last time you felt like "Aha! This is IT! I LOVE doing this! I could do this ALL the time!"

Now... what were you doing? What was it about what you were doing you loved so much?

I have a friend I had this conversation with one day. He's not really into looking at the spiritual side of things, he enjoys our earthly pleasures and wasn't really raised to look at life in any other way. That's fine, because for someone like me who looks at everything (or tries to) on a spiritual level he is my greatest challenge. If I could show him what abundance there is in manifesting for himself his life purpose then I can help anyone.

What you should know about him is he is one of the most generous and friendliest people there is. He's pretty opinionated and I often don't agree with his opinions, which he knows, but no matter what he is a true friend, most definitely the one to pick you up from jail or the middle of the desert in the middle of a week night. He loves having people over and even has a "Man Cave" for his friends to come over and play computer games together. His wife is Hostess Supreme, always concocting yummy dishes to feed all her husbands guests.

Glitter: "Okay, When was the last time you felt like - Aha! This is IT! I LOVE doing this! I could do this ALL the time?"

A: "When I was looking at apartment buildings to buy and thinking about how I can help fix them up, have tenants call me when something isn't working and I send someone out if I can't fix it myself."

Glitter: "So you are a chief."

A: "What do you mean?"

Glitter: "Well look, you are always helping people out, loaning things you have that people have need of, tools, cars, money. You love the feeling of being useful and appreciated by those you help. You do that at your job now, everyone looks to you on how to fix something and you love joking around with them, talking, having fun and helping them whenever they need it."

A: "Yeah... I do!"

Glitter: "So you are a chief, you are meant to take care of others, help them help themselves, you will find abundance doing that. No matter what job you have that is a role you will always be in because you feel good doing it so why not do it for yourself?"

Make sense?

My friend still hasn't been able to purchase those apartment buildings due to the owner not agreeing on a price but my friend now knows why he gets so excited at the thought of owning not just a home (which he has) but of owning a building that houses many people he is responsible for. My friend will be profitable at owning and renting apartments because he will do all he can to make his tenants happy to live there. In the meantime understanding his purpose he is able to find and understand the joy that comes from living out his "Chiefly" purpose in his daily life.

A happy person is one who is excited about what they do. Excitement breeds ideas to keep that excitement going. Positive thoughts mean not wasting time on things that hold you back. All it takes is knowing what makes you feel good, that is the first step to finding your life purpose.

So... When was the last time you felt like "Aha! This is IT! I LOVE doing this! I could do this ALL the time!"

Now... what were you doing? What was it about what you were doing you loved so much?

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

2010 Resolutions

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you've always imagined."
Henry David Thoreau


I've talked about it for the past year... starting up my blog to help people realize their dreams and potential. No more procrastinating, after all how can I help others get started if I don't get started? I've spent the past year reading all I can in preparation to help YOU (and many years prior helping myself.) I am bringing many years of experience in helping businesses begin and grow, frustrating or troubled relationships find peace and chasing stresses from not living the life you imagined away.

There is a lot I have learned and a lot more to learn in life. I've spent hours on yahoo answers helping people with friendships, relationships and family issues to starting their own business on a budget and with success... it's time to take yahoo out of the loop and do this on my own.

So join me in my resolution to make myself more available to help all of you with your resolutions. What is your dream for your life? I want to know them all - short and long term. I want to know what you want to do and what you feel keeps you from doing it. Anything in life is possible and sometimes it takes an outside perspective to help you see it.

That is where I come in, my nickname is Glitter after all! Through all the ups and downs (and you will eventually learn of many you would never imagine me having gone through) I have always seen the silver lining. It's a gift I have and all who know me know that on those darkest days I'm the girl to call. So call on me, I'm waiting...